Hmmm... today, well, I'm kindda pissy. I'm not to sure why... well, I DO know but anyways, yup as I said, pissy and brooding... so yeah, I recieved a call back from the recruitment office to scheduel my medical exam and my interview so things are looking up ^^ well, for the most part. I hate it when you have things going through your head, running scenarios and it all looks good, and then the actual thing turns out to be the exact OPOSITE of what you thought and planned.... *sigh* yeah... so, I think I'm going to go play one of my games and shoot a lot of people and blow shit up... later

Thought I'd have more time but i forgot to set me alarm this morning >< argitty... off to work for 8am, and guess what... I'm all by meself! :S eep. Me manager left me a list of shite to do so that should be otay... for the most part Imma thinkin'. So yeah, anywho, it's time for me to skiddalddle ^^ have a good day everyone!

Chuck, the Owner

Oi, me posts are comming few and far between, yet again... thought that might happen sooner or later, meh. Been playing Pirates of the Caribbean for PC, actually surprised that me pc can actually handle it but hey ^^ umm, yeah, not much else... have a job at Independant in Kemptville here, roughly 20hrs a week, not much but better then nothing eh? So yeah, I dunno, just stuff going on in my life right now that I thought I dealt with, or was dealing with that turns out that I'm not or haven't fully dealt with it yet... *sigh* Starting to fully understand the old saying "Ignorance is Bliss" Somedays I'd rather not know and be ignorantly happy then to be painfully aware and miserable-not as happy... ah well, take the hurdles as they come to you eh? I love not having a specific goal or destination in life... I'd say about 98% sarcasm there. Not having a goal/destination is like falling into a bottomless pit... you just keep going and going and going and not acheiving anything. So yup, before I depress myself with looking at the pointlessness that is my life, I will get back to posting shit on gaia, and if no one talks to me on msn, quite possibly go back to playing pirate till 11ish when I'm going to bed cuz I work tomorrow @8am so blah

Ok, don't have long, still have to get ready for work and now I have a very strong urge to go pooh >< so I did a little survey thing from someone's profile on gaiaonline.com (been there a lot recently ^^) so yeah, gonna post it on here right now then run to the toilet ^^

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourauraquiz/">What Color Is Your Aura?

HOPEFULLY that posts normally so yeah.... anywho, l8rz

Chuck, the Owner

Allo all you faithful readers out there! Well, I might just dull that down to reader, but I still have hope and faith! Anywho, UPDATE TIME!! Otay, so my job hunting for now is over, have a job at "Your Independant Grocer" or commonly known as, Independant, anywho, it's a sub-name for Loblaws Inc. kindda thing... Just like Sears and The Bay, both owned and run by HBC so hey. But yeah, I'm in the General Merchandise department, so pretty much anything that's not food is my department... home furniture, baby clothes, bath accessories, lightbulbs, mops, diapers, baby food, stuff like that. So my first day was on Saturday the 10th, not too bad. I kindda had fun, helped a few customers out, learned a bit about the store trying to find things and what not, I kindda liked it. Stayed an extra hour by accident, got so caught up in what I was doing that I just kept going, it was funny, but I liked it, so I think it'll be fun working there, saving money for ottawa, paying off the visa, buying my own stuff, things like that ^^ so yeah, have some more quotes to put up ^^ and here they are... note all quotes posted in this post are from Carl Sagan:

In science it often happens that scientists say, 'You know that's a really good argument; my position is mistaken,' and then they would actually change their minds and you never hear that old view from them again. They really do it. It doesn't happen as often as it should, because scientists are human and change is sometimes painful. But it happens every day. I cannot recall the last time someting like that happened in politics or religion.

Science is not only compatible with spirituality; it is a profound source of spirituality.

Absence of evidence is not evidence of absence.

But the fact that some geniuses were laughed at does not imply that all who are laughed at are geniuses. They laughed at Columbus, they laughed at Fulton, they laughed at the Wright brothers. But they also laughed at Bozo the Clown.

If we long to believe that the stars rise and set for us, that we are the reason there is a Universe, does science do us a disservice in deflating our conceits?

If you want to make an apple pie from scratch, you must first create the universe.

It is of interest to note that while some dolphins are reported to have learned English -- up to fifty words used in correct context -- no human being has been reported to have learned dolphinese.

One glance at a book and you hear the voice of another person, perhaps someone dead for 1,000 years. To read is to voyage through time.

and that's about all for now ^^ so I guess I'll post later and what not eh? l8rz

Chuck, the Owner

Yup, so went out yesterday and dropped off some more resumes, dropped one off at Shoppers, and another one off at a spa in town that I know offers massage, and I kind of applied for a masseuse position if they have one available so hopefully something will happen... I need to call that other place to see if I've got a position there or not, hopefully SOMEthing will pop up soon >< *sigh* anyways, short post today... feeling uber shitey, think I have a flu or something... so hungery, yet can't eat... thought and taste of food makes me wanna hurl >< anywho, yeah, as my comment/reply to Isa-lay's comment there, yeah, I missed out on an opportunity to make another move last night, more then one if I remember correctly... *sigh* I'm such a loser -.- ah well, lets see if I can keep some water down

Chuck, the Owner

So yeah, I know, another post in the same day... HOLY SHITE MONKEY! It's weird but I thought I'd do it anyways, you know, spice shite up and what not... anywho, after talking to LA for a bit, and, where all the best thinking is done, comming back down the stairs from the bathroom, as the label says, I had a revelation... I've been hanging out with this chica, I've mentioned her a few times on me posts, very cryptic like but hey, and it's really awesome, she's awesome and I love and look forward to the time we spend together everyday, it's like the highlight of each day, I know, sounds kindda on the pathetic side, but hey... so onto the revelation... she's actually, covertly and I don't know if she planned to do it but she did, has started to restore my faith and belief in God... it's pretty interesting, and yeah, I'm a pansy ass bitch. No other way to put it. With this same chica, I've had multiple oportunities to make a move and what not, but being someone with low self-confidence and low self-esteem I just watch them pass by with much regret and much self hurting... nothing to physical yet, I've just punched a door frame or to but that's about it so far but yeah... I keep trying to psych myself up to make the move, but then massive fear comes down on me uber hard and I'm afraid that if I do I'll ruin our friendship... which I don't want to happen AT ALL so yeah... blah... yeah, pathetic ain't it, but story of me life... yeah, Hope I can actually make a move, I'd really like this to go somewhere... and yup, need a job too -.- stupid kemptville and it's poor job selection... but I have plans^^ hehehehe anywho, I'm gonna stop here cuz the only thing that I've put in my stomach since I woke up this morning was a glass of Dr. Pepper, so I think I might need some foodage right about now... so post ya'll later and what not

Chuck, the Owner

so yeah, from last I heard Debbie was/is doing a lot better. She's still in critical condition but she's stable now, her vitals are raising slowly almost everyday, she's been taken off all sedation and morphine, and it's a daily check to see if she needs dialisys or not so that's looking hopeful as well. Dad wants to go back up there for her bday (which is totally understandable) but I don't really feel like going up there to watch the house and dogs again, for another week -.- so yeah, haven't heard back from that place I applied to, wich really sucks, thinking of fibbing to me dad so I can stay, and I'm thinking of throwing out a few more rezzy's at a few more places and some specific ones that might help out a lot as well... so hopefully I'll be getting a part time job soon, please Lord God PLEASE let me get a part time job soon><

Chuck, the Owner