Yup, so went out yesterday and dropped off some more resumes, dropped one off at Shoppers, and another one off at a spa in town that I know offers massage, and I kind of applied for a masseuse position if they have one available so hopefully something will happen... I need to call that other place to see if I've got a position there or not, hopefully SOMEthing will pop up soon >< *sigh* anyways, short post today... feeling uber shitey, think I have a flu or something... so hungery, yet can't eat... thought and taste of food makes me wanna hurl >< anywho, yeah, as my comment/reply to Isa-lay's comment there, yeah, I missed out on an opportunity to make another move last night, more then one if I remember correctly... *sigh* I'm such a loser -.- ah well, lets see if I can keep some water down

Chuck, the Owner

So yeah, I know, another post in the same day... HOLY SHITE MONKEY! It's weird but I thought I'd do it anyways, you know, spice shite up and what not... anywho, after talking to LA for a bit, and, where all the best thinking is done, comming back down the stairs from the bathroom, as the label says, I had a revelation... I've been hanging out with this chica, I've mentioned her a few times on me posts, very cryptic like but hey, and it's really awesome, she's awesome and I love and look forward to the time we spend together everyday, it's like the highlight of each day, I know, sounds kindda on the pathetic side, but hey... so onto the revelation... she's actually, covertly and I don't know if she planned to do it but she did, has started to restore my faith and belief in God... it's pretty interesting, and yeah, I'm a pansy ass bitch. No other way to put it. With this same chica, I've had multiple oportunities to make a move and what not, but being someone with low self-confidence and low self-esteem I just watch them pass by with much regret and much self hurting... nothing to physical yet, I've just punched a door frame or to but that's about it so far but yeah... I keep trying to psych myself up to make the move, but then massive fear comes down on me uber hard and I'm afraid that if I do I'll ruin our friendship... which I don't want to happen AT ALL so yeah... blah... yeah, pathetic ain't it, but story of me life... yeah, Hope I can actually make a move, I'd really like this to go somewhere... and yup, need a job too -.- stupid kemptville and it's poor job selection... but I have plans^^ hehehehe anywho, I'm gonna stop here cuz the only thing that I've put in my stomach since I woke up this morning was a glass of Dr. Pepper, so I think I might need some foodage right about now... so post ya'll later and what not

Chuck, the Owner

so yeah, from last I heard Debbie was/is doing a lot better. She's still in critical condition but she's stable now, her vitals are raising slowly almost everyday, she's been taken off all sedation and morphine, and it's a daily check to see if she needs dialisys or not so that's looking hopeful as well. Dad wants to go back up there for her bday (which is totally understandable) but I don't really feel like going up there to watch the house and dogs again, for another week -.- so yeah, haven't heard back from that place I applied to, wich really sucks, thinking of fibbing to me dad so I can stay, and I'm thinking of throwing out a few more rezzy's at a few more places and some specific ones that might help out a lot as well... so hopefully I'll be getting a part time job soon, please Lord God PLEASE let me get a part time job soon><

Chuck, the Owner